tomorrow’s dismay

A poem I wrote about trauma. Nothing explicit here.

The planets and the stars aligned that night
To change the course of my world, my time
I didn’t know it then, but I know it now
Forever scarred, happiness disallowed

Your choice was to eradicate mine
That’s fine, I’ll never be canonized
Biting my lip until I draw blood
Praying what I say will be enough

Saturn conjunct Mars
Heart forever scarred
Perhaps it was the mercury retrograde
Or maybe I was just growing insane

To forever think that it’s all my fault
My heart’s agony, forever installed
Vomiting my words, they’re on display
Today's actions mean tomorrow’s dismay

Your choice was to eradicate mine
Actions undid, it would be sublime
Biting my lip until I draw blood
Praying that what I say will be enough
I never will be canonized
My heart will be on the mend
In forever’s time